Sunday, September 26, 2010
A change
This may come as a huge surprise to most of my friends online, but I'm just not that 'into' music. Actually, that would probably come as a surprise to a lot of people. I used to be. For years. Sure, I still listen to music, and I still love music. But I don't really care to learn anything about the people who created that music. I learned that the hard way. For years, I was downright 'obsessed' (someone else's term, not mine) with the Beach Boys. I still love them and listen to them all the time! But anyway, I searched and tracked down just about everything I could about them. And then, once I had everything I could find...I realized, 'Why did I do this?' It wasn't really what I wanted. I bought all these items and spent all this money just so I could say, 'Hey! Look over here, I have a huge collection!'. I spent years of my life learning about other people's lives. It honestly almost ruined the music for me. I probably would like many of my favorite bands more if I didn't know everything I do know about their personal lives. I now know who did what drugs, who slept with whom, and who got arrested for whatever. The music was so much more innocent before I knew all that stuff, and it's taken me years to realize that I don't need to study their lives to enjoy it all. My friends that I used to chat music with probably think I've forsaken them, but truth is, I just don't have anything to talk about with them. I'm at loss for conversation. I don't care to chat music anymore, it honestly bores me. It's a huge shame, I guess. Music brought me so much happiness through the years, so I guess it has served its purpose. I don't know why I changed. It happened before I got pregnant, so I know it wasn't because of my child. I haven't told anyone online yet, I honestly was afraid they would be disgusted with me. I spent over 15 years of my life in search of everything rock and roll. What now? Well, I could get new hobbies. Or I could just enjoy life as it comes. Anyway, just had to get this off my chest. Hopefully my dad won't be too disappointed in me. He loves music, and it's always been something that connected us.
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4 comments:
Whatever makes you happy is what you should focus on. Like you said, music brought you happiness for years, but now it doesn't necessarily do the same anymore, which is completely okay. Remember that to everything, there is a season. Live your life as it comes, and, as new things spark your interest, pursue learning about them as it pleases you. (:
Thanks Allison :)
Sure, it's a surprise...but not a disappointment.
I think I speak for all of us when I say we like you for you, not because of our ideals of what you should or shouldn't be.
But I totally see how too much of a good thing can be nauseating...I'm not as obsessed with collecting beatles or monkees memorabilia anymore. Still love receiving the stuff as gifts, though. It's about the people, not the things though.
You're so right, Tina! I was just afraid that a lot of the people I connected with online because of music would look down on me.
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